life is really saying fuck my happiness rn. i’ve been so patient and i feel like i haven’t got anywhere. maybe that’s where i went wrong, but i tried. i feel defeated right now. moreover with my personal life, i feel like nothing is reciprocated with me. i try so hard to consider and care for those who mean most to me but simple things i don’t feel back. i’d drop anything for you and little things that would make me happy, you just don’t care for it.
it’s easy to fall back into old habits, but it’s far more rewarding to learn from them.
ii. february
you are capable of far more than you believe. spend your days breaking barriers you didn’t even know existed.
iii. march
mortality is fragile; he knew it, and you know it. there’s nothing you could have done to save someone who didn’t want to be saved.
iv. april
sometimes, you have to take responsibility for things you didn’t do in order to maintain necessary peace.
v. may
goodbyes are never easy; as your heart is ripped apart, remember they’re headed off to change the world. the opportunities are endless. be excited for them.
vi. june
don’t be afraid to trust; although others have torn you to shreds, the way he looks at you with soft eyes should make you believe he is different. he’s after your heart; give it to him.
vii. july
even an ocean between you two can’t stop the love you feel for him. no amount of vodka can drown it; learn to accept your feelings.
viii. august
it’s okay to put faith in your own judgements. your gut feeling is normally right, so listen to what it tells you.
ix. september
when you are patient, good things will come. don’t lose hope just because there’s a wait.
x. october
it’s important to know when to stop waiting and take matters into your own hands. if you want to know the taste of his lips, stop complaining and find out for yourself.
xi. november
kiss him whenever you can and tell him you love him with your words and without. take advantage of the time you have together because, soon, thousands of miles will separate you.
xii. december
stop holding back who you are, and allow yourself to be vulnerable for once. it will pay off, dear.
look, tomorrow you will wake up and feel a bit better, a bit calmer. you are going to figure things out eventually, it dosnt have to all be done tonight. take a deep breath, relax your shoulders, and get some rest. you will manage.
